I Love, Want, Need

I love you
Can't you see?
Is it really hard to be
So in love with me?
I want you
Don't you know?
How much it hurts me so
to see you leave me here
All alone in many tears.
I need you
By my side
To make everything alright
To tell me it's okay
So I can smile again today

Only Today

Only today will I stay
Only today will I be strong
Only today will I not cry
Only today will I hold on
Only for today must I take care of you
Then I can fall again till I am needed
To stand to be there
For you.

Being Me When All Else Says No

Shall I ever find myself even in this world of hurt? Can I manage to be me even when the others conform? Will I listen even when my heart tells me to rebel? I can only follow where my heart leads. I can only be one person no matter what others say. I can only be myself if I allow the truth to shine through my broken walls. Only light can shine in the darkness. No more lies or cheats shall exist in this life. No more denying the truth that hides so deep within that few shall find. No more letting others believe the lie that does not exist. No more fighting to be someone I am not. No more.

I will be me. I will be free. I will fight when I want to run. I will shine when I want to hide. I will not let this world make me something I am not. I will not conform to this evil that wants to destroy me.  Free from the grasps of the wicked that seek to maim. I will move through this life as that of a butterfly. I will soar till I can soar the skies no more. I will fly as high as I can. I may fall. I may want to give up. I may damage my wings, but I will never cease to be me. I am free.

If I Wrote a DDR Song

This is a song that I just wrote because I had nothing else to do. I felt the inspiration and just went with it. When reading this, think of DDR and it's beats that typically play. It's supposed to be like that. lol. Hope you enjoy!
Written on April 7, 2010

Verse 1:
My mind is racing
My heart is speeding
My soul is craving for someone to know
My spirit dances inside of me
It's time to let it show

Chorus:
Love is nice Love is grand
You're the only one to let it stand
I want you to see
All my love I have for you inside
Love is nice Love is grand
You're the only one to let it stand
I want you to know
I love you completely by my side

Verse 2:
Who's the butterfly that dances nimbly
Looking for a place to hide
Who knows who hols the key
To open up her heart
Her spirit's free
Her heart is open
Her mind is ready to accept
A love that is so pure it can make a stance

Chorus 2x

We Don't Give Up

Sometimes we're given a hope just to have it taken away.
Sometimes we're given a life just to have it stolen from us.
What do we do in these times?
We pray.
We love.
We learn.
We cope.
We move on.
We don't give up.
That's what we do.
Enough said.
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Yeah, I got really bored. hahaha. I don't even know where this came from. Oh well! lol. Bye.

(A/N: Still have no idea where this came from.)

I can do nothing

My heart is breaking from the inside out.
My mind is craving what it can't have.
My soul is longing for the warmth of his embrace.
I can't handle this anymore.
I can't take this pain anymore.
What can I do though?
What can I say?
Nothing.
Absolutely nothing.
I will only hurt him.
I will only hurt him...
I will only hurt me.
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Thoughts of Mine 4-27-10

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My words are not my own. My smile is not my own. My life is not my own. I have nothing to myself.
Everything I am has come to You. Everything I do is only for You.
You are the only way I can live.
You are the only way I can be.
Please be me.
For I cannot live alone.
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I can't live in the past and not move forward.
I can't go through this life and not fall behind.
I can't be myself and please others.
I can't live my life without living a lie.
I can't go inside and not see the outside.
I can't be alive and live for you.
I can't live with me and live without you.
I can't.
I just can't be me.
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If I remember to smile no one will notice
If I remember to smile no one can see
If I remember to smile someone else might
If I remember to smile they will see the light
If I remember to smile they can find their way
If I remember to smile I can have faith
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